Pride

The greatest problem in relationships is thinking more highly of ourselves than we ought to think. If we have a problem in your family, its because someone there is thinking more highly of himself of herself than he or she ought. If we have a problem in relationships, someone in the relationships is thinking more highly of himself/herself than he or she ought. Is there a problem in church? Guess what's the root of it? What about problems in society? Does our community have a problem with race relationships? You guessed it. People from one race or several races are thinking of themselves more highly than they ought. Now, does the problem have a name? Yes, it is spelled P R I D E, PRIDE.

Pride, though has two faces. One has superiority - prideful people think they are better than others. And another form of pride, a more insidious form. People with this type of pride think more lowly of themselves than they ought. This sounds humble at first, but its actually pride. Because its not the truth.

A proper relationship with any other person on this planet is really a matter of humility. We may not agree with everything the other person says, but we recognize that we are called to value, care for, and embrace that person. That is the basis of good relating. Unity in any situation is simply relationship based upon humility. If we want unity in our relationships, both we and our partners need to be moving in humility. Both of us must be willing to say "I'm sorry", willing to outdo each other in forgiveness, kindness and servanthood. "It can't be that simple," you protest. But it is. The problem is that most people dont see it because they are in despair. They are overwhelmed by the many problems around them and don't know where to start. There is only one starting point: having a right and honest estimation of ourselves and then moving in true humility. When we can do this, I believe we will have the faith to minister to others and bring change to our lives as well.

Just saying.

Feelings come and go.

Over the years, Ive noticed an interesting in my own relationship and the relationships of many friends I know. FEELINGS COME AND FEELINGS GO. That's a fact. 


Sometimes, we can feel head over heels about our partner, and other times everything seems dull. But if we stay committed through the dull times, the feelings of love return. But if, we choose to withdraw our commitments from our partner and give it to someone else, the relationship is doomed. sometimes this withdrawal of commitment may be subtle no one else could ever notices, but we know where our heart is and whether we are letting it run after another person. 


It is alot like being a Christian. One morning I wake up and feel unsaved. I don't feel one bit of love for God. I try to read the bible, but its boring. I try to concentrate in church, but my mind keeps wandering around. Have you ever had days like that? I have. now, if I walk on and keep committed to the Lord even though I lack alot of feelings and stop going to youth, it is most likely that the feelings will not return and I will give up Christianity. 


I suppose it is a one thing everyone should bear in mind of. 

In Pain

Aunty Millie was right. It's not easy to get over it. And no, this picture above doesn't belong to me. I googled it.

I've wanting to stop hurting myself, mentally and physically but something stopped me. Its like there's a part of me controlling me, from the inside. I know this sounds really silly and stupid, but I just can't stop. Is this what we called love? I'm confused. I, need, help.

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Move on?

It seems like, you've moved on. Youre starting to be flirty now, and yes here comes my jealousy. But whatever, your happiness is what I wished for :') Sometimes, I wonder, if you ever think of me. Sometimes, I think if I'm wasting my time thinking of you. But then again, you're not a waste of time. If you're reading this, always keep in mind that I'll always care about you. I'll care about you now, I'll care about you tomorrow. Even if you piss me off, even if you hurt me, even if you've walked out of my life, or even we'd stop talking to each other, I'D STILL CARE ABOUT YOU. I've always cared and always will. 

Pretty much sums up how I feel

I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need em again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere

I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night

I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

All I want to do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end
oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

MEMORIES. They never fade, do they? Everytime i think its okay, it just gets worse. I MISS YOU, but at the same time, im confused. I really do miss you whole lot. 

Since the day he left, i cried every night before i sleep, wished that he would come back to me, missed the way we used to be, i even cried when i do my homework while listening to music. What I hope is, time really does heal wounds. 

Suddenly hit with a dire need to blog, and do forgive me for my lack of presence. Now that I'm fully back on social networks such as facebook and twitter, the desire to blog has decreased, immensely. I suppose I should also explain my sudden MIA.

I am currently in KL. Though I do have laptops with me, I haven't had the chance to update, and Ive been waiting for something to happen so I can actually update something...more interesting?

Heading to KK in few more days, currently hibernating at home, and relax before form five comes by and impales me to my study table. So, I've been here for a month now, been eating loads of foods and of course, enjoying time away from home but terribly missing my homies, especially my parents. It feels so empty inside of me.

Remember what I said about studying during the holidays? yeah hands down buddies, the word would be FAIL. I'm just overwhelmed with the laziness and there's no motivation, at all! Now I finally realised the importance of parents' presence, look at the positive side, the nags, the pressure, expectations they give, helps. It'll pushes you to strive and make an effort to reach a goal  to "revenge", as in proving them that you have the ability to do so. I am now so infinitely blessed for my parents to give me the constant urge to find silver linings. Best believe that every outcome is to my advantage.

Anyways, did a little shopping, ON FOODS. went shopping for few times with the sisters, hoping to purchase new goods but unfortunately foods encircled me. On another note, I've been up till morning since I got here, doing absolutely nothing! Awake, turn on the TV and watch a few series of Gossip Girls. After that, go back to stalking people on facebook. Result? my face right now looks as if its going through a war, of zits.

I don't really have much to say now, although I know I have tonnes to talk about. I was going to rant on about being unhappy and pissed but thought against it.

Have a loverly week ahead to you folks.